March 2011
3 posts
3/24/11
I just want someone to finally see me for who I am. To get to know me. To see past everything that’s is so obvious. To love me. Is that really too much to ask?
I LIKE YOU. And all I want is for you to feel the same.
3/5/2011
I’m more excited for premonition than people can imagine. I honestly can’t wait for september to roll around and auditions to take place. And in all serious, I feel like I’m more excited for these auditions than I was when I made world guard in 09. Not that the jacket doesn’t mean anything to me anymore, because it will always hold a special place in my heart, but I...
3/2/2011
So it has come, again, the time to sign up for housing. And once again, my name will be on the top of that application. And once again, under the “preferred roommates” category, a name and panther ID will be placed. And yet, I am in such a different place than I was, not even a year later. It wont be Kristina’s name which fills those lines, the one who’d initially piqued my...
February 2011
3 posts
2/23/11
So it seems like once again, I will be giving up one want to pursue another. It’s nothing extraordinary, really; I just miss color guard so much, and maybe Premonition wont be Flanagan, but maybe that’s exactly what I’m looking for. Some place within the realm of color guard that I truly feel I belong. Because let’s face it, I didn’t belong at Flanagan. So I go forth,...
2/21/11
After all of the words, all of the hurt, all of the days I went home broken because of you, I will not take it anymore. I stopped doing what I love because I believed you when you told me I would never be good enough. But not anymore. This time next year, I will be doing what I love and no one will stop me. I will be the newest addition to Premonition Independent World Guard, and I couldn’t...
2/19/11
I’m really sick and tired of the way you treat me. Like I’m not good enough, like you can still talk to me the way you did when I was your little nothing puppet the way I was in high school. I’m sorry that I wasn’t good enough for you back then, really B, I am. Because now you have it so ingrained in my head that i can’t get your words out. It’s to the point...